Do I love you?

Do I love you?
Is that the secret locked inside
Do you love me?
Or is it a trick of my pride

Could this be love or do I pretend
Thinking I want you as more then a friend

I think I am dwelling
Seeing what isn’t there
So why is my heart yelling
That we both truly care

I'm confused and I'm shaking
Scared of both our hearts breaking

I'm locked in a kaleidoscope with you
You’re part of everything I think or say or do
Reminded of you at every turning
Unable to focus consumed by my yearning
I constantly have that sore gut feeling
From my frayed nerves that are still reeling

Do you not feel it or do you pretend
Do you see and dream me as lover or friend
I'm trying to fight my overwhelming attraction
But things you do keep causing reaction

I'm only getting started you once said
Was it just a lie so you wouldn’t see me dead?
You lead me on and then treat me mean
Is this the only way you know to keep me keen?
For your boyish humour and charming way
Have already hooked me to my dismay
23 March 2005